||[Jul. 9th, 2006|12:34 pm]
An entry in ages, yes. Been back for a little more than a week now, yes. As always, it's good to be back and all. Tirya/Marjorie's arrival, the Cosfest and many other things, has kept me fairly busy. MSG Man Chapter 10 too of course, which is about 75% done.|
Being relatively free at home's also given lots of time to think about stuff too. About where my life's heading, what it is now and what it might be in the future.
Nothing lasts forever, I feel. Nothing at all. Friends come and go, leaving to lead their own lives, be it in a civil or hostile manner, suddenly or gradually. Family members grow up with you and eventually die too, whether you like it or not. And of course, material objects eventually turn to dust.
Kinda makes it hard for feel to ever get attached to anything or anyone these days. I make new friends in America and at home and all, sure. But I find myself increasingly reluctant to get close to anyone for real, knowing that they will fade away eventually. We all have our lives to lead after all. Probably the only person that will be around for long is your significant other (let's hope I find mine), and even then, he/she will eventually die and fade away from your life. No, don';t give me that "ZOMG memories last forever" stuff, no that doesn't cut the mustard dude.
I've been having ideas, of when I graduate and have worked a good while. I'll probably want to travel the world, see more of Japan, all of Japan even. I don't think I can ever settle down and live in one place for the rest of my life. Nothing lasts anymore, so why should I bother to keep myself in the same place? Sounds like a plan.