I like meeting old friends. Meeting them brings back good old memories, strengthens old relationships and even might create a new dimension to it. However for me, I hate meeting old friends from college. Just met one on saturday, and as always, almost anyone I meet from college is just about that much better off than I am. They have places in University, they did decently in the A levels, they have a place to go, they know what they want. I'll admit it - I don't want to face the harsh reality after NS. I want to just draw, play games and buy stuff forever and forever. But I can't, and I know that there's nothing for me at the end of the tunnel, if I ever get to the end. Why can't I just....disappear now? Please?